Today, Sunday, is the day intended to honor the dads in our lives. Father's Day is celebrated on the 3rd Sunday of June. Not only America nor Philippines are celebrating on the same date but there are about 50 countries more.
This morning, I woke up with a text message from my mother in the Philippines. Her message was read as "Happy Father's day to Chad (my husband) and Tommy (my father-in-law). So I responded saying "Please tell dadi "Happy Father's Day".
I am not accustomed with that kind of message from either my parents. Both of them gave me and my siblings a tough love. We never say I love you nor sorry to each other. The discipline they exude to us were more like of a "military discipline". My father was once a member of the Philippine Army for 30 years and that explains why. I would not expound what had happened years ago. Bringing up the past somehow ruins my day.
Not all father-daughter relationships are perfect. Mine is not either. My father and I don't talk as often as I do with my siblings. It's not that we are mad at each other. We are merely not that close. When there is a chance, our words towards one another are insufficient. Never receive a text message nor a call from my own father. Since I was a kid, I could barely recall that we bonded. Sometimes I would ask myself "is he really my biological father?" (though we are look alike) or "why I have him as my father"? Hammer my head for such stupid thoughts.
At the back of my mind, I am thinking that my father feels a bit remorse for everything. I could see the softness in his heart but he'd rather keep it himself. Maybe because he don't want his children to tease (the way he does) him back . Despite of everything, I am still thankful for I have a father like him. He's one of the reasons why I become LIRA.
There would come a time that we're both gonna bond. I dunno know when it's gonna happen. It might be next year through my daughter. Who knows? I just hope.
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY, dy. Though you won't be able to read this (that's why I vented here lol).
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2 responses:
Lira, fathers are not perfect but we aren't either. I had a very difficult childhood and know what you mean about not being close to your father.
all in all, let us recognize those who are kind in heart and give us a spirit of love; regardless of their relation to us. a father is a figure of support and love.
give my happy fathers day wishes to your dh chad.
hello Lir, makahilak man sad ko sa imong post dinhi oi..sori sa imong giagian Lir sa TOwn Site,...muabot ra na ang time na muhumok ang hughan ni father u.
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